Sunday, June 21, 2015

San Diego Heaven

This is the blog where I tell you all about the most amazing and much needed vacation in the history of ever. You see, I don't know why exactly, but life has been a little rocky here at the Palmer house this past year. It's not anything that we can't handle, or is that extreme mind you, but somewhere along the way we forgot to be utterly, blissfully, happy in the day to day hustle and bustle of life. So when we got a big fat tax return our brains instantly went to the bills that needed to be paid and the fridge that makes scary noises. We thought about how we have to run the dryer twice to get our clothes dry and the yard work that needed to be done. And the more we thought about those mundane everyday things, the more unhappy we got. But aha! Why not invest the money. So that is exactly what we decided to do. We invested the money into us. Into our marriage. Into our family. Into making memories. And I am here to tell you, it was the BEST investment that we have ever made! Yes, that may sound sappy, but guess what? I am a sappy kind of happy. I am sappy happy!

Our vacation was a week long. We drove to Mesquite on Sunday, which is half way and 10 minutes away from my grandparents home. We got to visit with them and they took us out to dinner and then we went to bed early because at the butt crack of dawn we woke up and drove the rest of the way to San Diego. I was super nervous about the car ride because Leland gets really car sick, it is a freaking long time for a toddler to sit still, and we both get extremely crabby when we are tired or hungry and so two crabs in the car equals bad news. However, he did phenomenal! We had a little car sickness but nothing too cringe worthy. I had downloaded some episodes of Paw Patrol (love that show!) on my iPad and it was a total life saver! I really was astounded that he did so well! (Insert happy dance here).

Monday night we checked into our hotel, ordered pizza,and hit the pool.

Tuesday we went to Sea World. It was a blast. Leland loved it, though he did fall asleep during the dolphin show, which was my favorite one. They had professional divers, acrobats, ribbon dancers, the whole works! We also went to a whale show, the seal and otter show, and a pet show where they had dogs and cats do funny tricks. I think the pet show was Leland's favorite because he is definitely in a "puppy!" phase right now. He didn't like getting wet though so we made sure to sit in the dry section for all of the other shows haha. We did ride two of the little kiddie rides and Leland loved them so much I had to drag him off kicking and screaming and promising him that we could ride it "one more" time.

Wednesday we headed over to Coronado Island for a beach day. We found a cute little cafe to have breakfast at and then basically had the beach to ourselves for most of the morning. Leland loved having the waves come up and wash over his feet and he thought it was hilarious when the water would go back and suck the sand from beneath his toes. We made lots of sandcastles and then we had a family nap together crowded under an umbrella. As I lay there watching my little family sleeping on the beach together I had a  Grinch moment where my heart grew three times its size. It was one of those perfect moments that you wish would never end. I was extremely aware of how blessed I am. I love those kind of moments-- they almost take your breath away in their perfection. The only downer about that day was that I completely forgot to put sunscreen on the back of my legs and they were completely scorched by the end of the day. As in, I can't move, kill me now, kind of burn. So yeah, that was not fun.

On Thursday we explored Balboa Park. It is this amazing place next to the zoo that has over 17 museums, botanical gardens, street performers, nature walks, Japanese gardens, and food vendors. All of the buildings look like they are straight from Spain (not that I have ever been there) and so the atmosphere is quite lovely. This ended up being the perfect spot for my boys. We went to a vintage car museum, an aerospace museum, a railroad museum, and the San Diego History Museum. The car museum was run by all of these WWII veterans and so it was a lot of fun talking to them. One older man even gave Leland a wooden toy car that he had handmade himself which was really neat. At the aerospace museum we got to watch a 3D movie about space travel and when our seats began shaking Leland got a little nervous, but by the end he thought that was pretty hilarious. We decided to go to the San Diego History Museum because they were doing a temporary display of Dr. Seuss. Maybe this is common knowledge, but I had no idea, that Dr. Seuss was from San Diego. The museum had some of his original paintings that never made it into books which was completely fascinating to me. The walls were lined with his quotes and there were sculptures everywhere of his characters. My book nerdy self was ecstatic! By far the best museum however, was the train museum. Leland is obsessed with "choo-choos" right now. This museum was two floors of model trains and my son probably ran the entire museum three times. The halls were lined with windows that you look in at the trains, and every so often they have steps going up so that the younger kids can see. Leland would run up the steps, shout "Wow!.... More!", run down the steps, run down the hallway to the next set of stairs, and repeat. He barely even took time to look at them because he was too excited to see "more!". By the end of it I was almost dying laughing at my son's enthusiasm and excitement. I wish I would have thought to get it on video because it was so freaking funny! So anyway, all of his souvenirs have wheels-- a jeep from Sea World, a car, a plane, and a train. He was in boy heaven!

On Friday we went bowling, went out to lunch, and then hit the pool again. We taught Leland how to hang on to the side of the pool- it took a while, but he got it and we were proud parents indeed. He loved it when I threw him up out of the water and into the arms of his daddy who was standing three feet away. We played "toss the toddler" until our arms couldn't take it anymore. We are definitely raising a fish. Another funny thing at the pool was that when you got out of the water you got pretty cold because of the breeze. Justin and I stayed in the pool so we never got too cold, but Leland kept getting out and in because he liked to jump in. Pretty soon his teeth would be chattering and he would just start pointing, which meant that he was ready to get warm in the hot tub. Oooooh the hot tub, A freezing toddler's best friend haha. I loved spending that much time with him in the pool, he is such a crack up!

Saturday and Sunday were exactly like the first two days of our trip, but in reverse (obviously). Leland did amazing in the car again but this time the days seemed never ending because we were tired and ready to be home. And boy was it good to be home and back in our own beds!

I am just so, so thankful that we took this trip. I am absolutely in love with my family again and life is going pretty great for us. We really got to cherish each other and soak each other up for a few days and it was fabulous. We still have a scary noise making fridge and are still in debt, but the memories we created and the bonding that took place are priceless. I am the type of person who needs vacations. I crave them. These last few years vacations haven't been a priority or they get put on the back burner. But I came to realize that our life is happening now. Leland will never be this age again. We will only be a family of three for so long. (And no, that was not an announcement) Basically what I am saying is, is live life to the fullest right now. Because you will always have bills and mundane things that need attention...blah blah blah. No more excuses. Get out there and create some memories!

*Disclaimer: We are at an age where getting a good picture is downright impossible*






















Tuesday, April 7, 2015

Help Wanted!


Hey there friends!

So I have made a goal that I REALLY want to achieve! And if you can help me out in anyway I would love you forever and we would be BFF's! I am currently trying to promote to team leader in my Usborne Books and More business. In order to do that I need to find some recruits! And it just so happens that April is such a great month to join my team BECAUSE Usborne is offering consultants the chance to earn a FULL KIT REFUND! And on top of that I will give anyone who joins my team an added $30 in FREE books.... that is SO MANY FREE BOOKS!

So maybe you aren't that interested and that is fine! But you can still help me! Just take a moment and think of anyone who fits any of the following criteria:
-Is a stay at home parent who could use a night out
-Is a working parent who wishes they could work from home
-Is someone who wants to add some extra income to their family budget
-Is someone who loves free books and wants to build up their home library
-Is someone who wants to meet amazing people and build lifelong friendships

If you know of anyone who this business would benefit, talk to them about this opportunity! If  they sign up, then you will BOTH get FREE books! Think of your friends, send them my way, get free books! Easy peasy!

Thanks everyone! And on a side note, isn't that umbrella adorable? You should sign up just for that! haha

Wednesday, March 18, 2015

Let it Go

I have been putting off writing this blog for a while. I was hoping that the ‘Frozen’ epidemic would die out, because I didn’t want to be one of those people.  You know who I am talking about. The kind of people who are filling up youtube with their own ‘let it go’ parodies.  Yes, I own the movie.  And yes, I own the soundtrack. But let’s be honest, I mean really honest, that movie is WAY overrated am I right? And that song… heaven to betsy… it is in competition with any of Taylor Swift’s hits for being wonderful at first but so overplayed you kind of start to cringe every time it comes on the radio. Yes, radio. I blame you for ruining some of my very favorite songs for me.

But I am getting off track. Because dissing on Frozen is NOT what this blog post is about.
This blog post is actually a TRIBUTE to the song ‘Let it Go’. (Hypocrite much?) *sigh, I know.  Because you see, there is a reason why that song touches so many people. And it has nothing to do with a beautiful Disney princess and little girl dreams. But it does have everything to do with the fact that there is something in every single person’s life on planet earth that they need to let go of.  Something they are ashamed of themselves for, something they try to hide from other people. I read one blog post that was circulating Facebook about how the song was referring to gay people and their struggle to “come out of the closet”.  And where that is all fine and dandy for them that is NOT what the song meant to ME.

You see, for me, the song described how I feel about having depression to the tee.

The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside

Couldn't keep it in;
Heaven knows I've tried
Don't let them in,
don't let them see
Be the good girl you always have to be
Conceal, don't feel,
don't let them know
Well now they know

So In case you were wondering why all of this is coming out tonight, it is because tonight my husband and I went on a date to see ‘Night at the Museum 3”. This is supposed to be a funny movie, but as the credits began rolling and “A tribute to Robin Williams” popped on the screen, my chest began to constrict. I started bawling big fat tears on the way home.  It may sound so weird to other people that I was mourning the death of a man that I have never even met, but I have felt what he felt. I have felt hopeless. I have felt friendless. I have felt suicidal. And he felt all of these things. I wonder how many people knew this about him. He seemed like such a happy and jovial person on the outside “Conceal, don’t feel” – that is what was going on. But if he had just “let it go” how many people would have helped him I wonder? He touched the lives of MILLIONS of people- not only his fans, but the fellow actors that he worked with I am sure. But in his final moments, he didn’t feel like there was one single person on the planet that he could turn to for help. It breaks my heart. Not only for the loss of his life, but for me too, because I know how it feels.

In high school I was completely humiliated that I suffered from depression. I felt tainted, like if other people knew the thoughts that came into my head sometimes it would scare them off and they would want nothing to do with me. I tried so hard to live the motto “fake it ‘till you make it’. It’s how I lived my life; never allowing myself to feel what I was really feeling, keeping everything bottled up inside, trying to hide my true emotions and plaster a smile on my face.  It is a very lonely way to live though. “A kingdom of isolation, and apparently I’m the queen.”  But there is a reality to my way of thinking. Who wants to be around someone who is sad, depressed, self-loathing, and pessimistic all of the time? I really felt that I couldn’t be myself and have friends at the same time.  And I have also been on the other side of that spectrum. In college I had a friend who was so emotionally draining on me. All she did was complain about her life and vent to me. I understand that venting is part of friendship, but I needed more than that from her. I also need fun and laughter and support in MY life, not always me giving it to her. It truly was a one sided friendship, so believe me when I say that I understand both sides.

But when you are in a deep depression your way of thinking is warped. You have tunnel vision. You question everything. You are afraid to tell people how you are feeling because you fear even more rejection. So you isolate yourself. I don’t know if you do it to protect yourself, or protect your friends from yourself. Probably both.

But there is a catch to this, and it is called social media. Social media allows depressed people to seek approval from their peers, without actually having to interact with them. It is SO easy to “fake it till you make it” on social media. You post all happy stuff in hopes to hide your true agonies, because getting “likes” and happy comments makes you feel good about yourself, if only for a moment. Social media is a way to filter your life. You have complete control over it, over what people see, so you begin to create the image of what you want to be, but not necessarily who you are. The damage that this can cause is severe because your friends only see the happy stuff and may never know what is really going on.

I don’t think anyone knew what was really going on with Robin Williams either. His death was 100% preventable. If only he had gotten help and not been ashamed of himself for having this mental illness. In 2009, the last year for which statistics are available, suicide was the 10th leading cause of death in the U.S. That year, there were nearly 37,000 suicides, and 1 million people attempted suicide, according to the Centers for Disease Control. I can only imagine that those numbers have grown at an alarming rate every year.

The only way I can see to stop suicide, is to be open about mental illness. To educate people on how they can not only get help for themselves, but how to help others. People need to know the warning signs, and not always judge people from what they see on facebook. We need to talk openly about it, and shout from the rooftops that there is nothing to be ashamed of!

My name is Kristi and I was diagnosed with depression when I was ten years old. And there is no shame in that, not anymore. 

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Jumanji

Patch Adams
Mrs. Doubtfire
RV

Dead Poets Society
Father's Day
Aladdin

Night at the Museum 
Popeye
Nine Months

Ferngully
Flubber
FRIENDS
Hook

Sunday, March 8, 2015

My Top 20

These are the top 20 reasons of why I love what I do! (but I know there are a lot more than that!)
1. I get to feel like I am working while I also get to feel like I am a stay at home mom.

2. I choose my own hours and days which is basically choosing your own paycheck. You get out what you put in.

3. I have met some of the most amazing people and made some of the best friendships since I have started this business!

4. It gets me out of the house!

5. I get to promote literacy and be passionate about what I do. Helping children fall in love with reading is what it is all about!


6. I don’t have to rely on just one way to sell. I can do home shows, booths, sell to schools and libraries, or even have facebook parties.


7. There is so much room for growth in the Usborne company- we can never have enough people join!


8. My personal home library has grown exponentially since I started.


9. My son’s love of books has grown astronomically!


10. I contribute to our family’s income.


11. There are no minimum requirements. I literally took the whole month of January off because we had so much family stuff going on and there were NO penalties for doing this.


12. Usborne gives you all of the tools you need, with a great informative website, and social media groups that you can go to anytime for answers to any questions. Help is always, always available.


13. I have never felt like I have to do a sales pitch for these books. The product literally sales itself.


14. People genuinely LOVE these books. And their kids do too. I can feel satisfied knowing they will be happy with their purchase.


15. Usborne has some really good fundraising tools I can use to help the people around me.


16. My team leaders are amazing and always there to listen to me and help me out when I need it. They have given me amazing tips and tricks that have really worked for me.


17. Every year they have regional training meetings where you can learn so much about your business as well as meet some new amazing friends.


18. The prices are very competitive. I really don’t feel like anything is overpriced.


19. This job has given me confidence in myself and my abilities. It has made me reach outside my comfort zone and has made me a better person.


20. The people at Usborne really do care about their consultants. The CEO came to our regional meeting and took the time to talk to everyone there. You definitely do not feel like just a number to them, I appreciate that a lot.


If any of this sounds like what you have been looking for in a career please talk to me today! I would love to answer any questions you might have! I also offer anyone who signs up under me an extra $20.00 in FREE books! You can join my team today at D4538.myubam.com

I Wish I Could Speak Whale!

As some of you might know, our little Leland is completely and utterly obsessed with "fishies!" We watch Finding Nemo EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. And if it's not Finding Nemo, then it's Bubble Guppies. He will also randomly just start yelling, "fishies! fishies! fishies!" In which case you better whip that iPad or smart phone out  real fast and show him a youtube video of fish swimming. It doesn' matter what, a koi pond, a coral reef, even a small aquarium will do. He is probably the only kid in the entire world that loves going to the doctor because, yup, you guessed it! There is an aquarium in the waiting room!

So this year for my dad's birthday my mom thought it would be fun to go to the Living Planet Aquarium in SLC. My dad kind of jokingly grumbled about how it was HIS birthday but we were doing what Leland wanted to do haha. That's Dad for ya! Fortunately for all of us the second my son saw all the "fishies!" his grandpa turned into a puddle of goo and was skipping around with him like a little kid! If you haven't been down there I would highly recommend it! It was the perfect outing and we had such a blast, mostly due to Leland and his excitement I am sure. His enthusiasm for the entire affair was very contagious! We saw penguins, otters, sharks, jelly fish, sting rays, snakes and other reptiles, plenty of creepy crawlies (which I stayed far away from) and much more! It was really fun and educational and Leland was saying "fishies!" much more frequently for days afterwards.
















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