Pregnancy Scare

On Tuesday at work I started having really bad cramps, which was kind of worrisome, so I called my doctor and she said that it was a sign that I had been over working myself. Apparently lifting all those heavy books and getting on my hands and knees to reach the bottom shelf multiple times a day has finally caught up to me. My doctor basically said that if I didn't slow down I could be in danger of miscarrying. She told me to go home, put my feet up, and get as much rest as possible, before it got any worse.  She then told me that if the cramps did get worse, or I started to bleed, to go to the emergency room right away so that they could check on the baby. So I kind of took that as I was on the verge of losing my baby.This is about when the panic attack started and the hormones took over my body making me a bawling, emotional, mess of a human being. After an embarrassing emotional display with my super sweet and understanding boss, I left work early and got immediately into bed. I think Tuesday was the first night that I really experienced the power of hormones. I know I have been more emotional than usual, but nothing compared to what was happening to my emotions that night. I literally could not stop crying. It was pathetic how little control I had over myself. My doctor also told me that if the cramps didn't go away by Wednesday morning to come in and see her. Luckily, I woke up Wednesday feeling perfectly fine. However, I stayed in bed the entire day, better be safe than sorry.

You know, you think you kind of have an idea of what you are getting yourself into when you become pregnant. But you have NO bloody idea! It is soooo crazy! First, it is such a miracle to even become pregnant in the first place. How do people not believe in a God, I mean seriously??!!! But then when you finally do become pregnant you have so many emotions running through you. Pure joy and utter excitement. Anticipation. Fear of losing it. Scared straight that something is going to go wrong. Terror that you won't be a good parent. Sickness. Fatigue. On and on and on.  Ah! It is so overwhelming!

The Bun

Me: I definitely should have washed my hair this morning, but I decided to sleep instead.
Justin: So that's why librarians always wear a bun.
Me: Yup. Pretty much.

So there you go. You now know the secret behind the librarian bun. Librarians stay up way too late reading really good books causing them to wake up late and not have time to wash their hair. Hence, the bun.

Harry Potter as a Teen Comedy.

Disney Medley

When I'm Feeling Sad

"When the dog bites. When the bee stings. When I'm feeling sad. I simply remember my favorite things, and then I don't feel so bad." Wise words from "The Sound of Music" yes? These last few months I feel like I have been such a negative Nelly, a total Debbie downer if you will. Guess what? It's hard to be happy go lucky when you feel so yucky! But I have felt yucky for soooo long that it's come to a point where I am starting to miss my old happy self. No, I am not always a glow worm kind of happy- but I really do try.

I wish I were a glow worm

A glow worms never glum.

Cause it's hard to be sad

When the sun shines out your bum!

Anyway. Last night as I was laying in bed the lyrics from this song popped into my head. I  realized that there are so many things in this world that I love. I should make a list of some of them. Okay, that sounds cheesy, but the theory behind it is good right?

Ahem....

Kristi's Favorite Things:

• falling asleep while holding hands with Justin
• seeing my baby's heartbeat for the first time
• Zorro's happy feet dance he does when he is about to get a treat
• the smell of a campfire
• the last page of a really good book
• rounding the last corner in Logan Canyon and getting that first glimpse of Bear Lake
• feeling the grass between my toes for the first time in the spring
• singing my favorite jam in the car at the top of my lungs
• the first snow fall
• seeing the American flag being held by soldiers in a parade
• the sound of a baby's laugh
• collapsing into bed at night after a long busy day
• waking up in a tent after it has rained
• helping a stranger
• an icy cold Mt. Dew
• when Reeses Easter eggs hit the shelves
• frozen cherries from the Fruit  Heights orchards
• holidays
• getting the whole family together without anyone missing
• getting mail
• long chats with old friends
• winning a game of nerts
• the thrill I feel in my tummy that can only come from riding a horse, waverunner, or four wheeler
• when someone brings up Harry Potter or Friends in a conversation
• a really good "That's what she said" joke
• moments in my life that remind me of Brian Regan
• all the motorcycle engines that can be heard in Logan the first warm day of spring (thanks to Justin)
• a really good tan

Life really is grand! And so full of wonderful things! What are some of your favorite things? I would love to read them! Happy Friday everyone! I hope you have a great weekend!

Reflections and Resolutions

Happy New Year! I can't believe that another year has come and gone, time is going by so freaking fast! 2012 was a great, great year for Justin and I. Here is some highlights of the year 2012:

-- Becoming an Aunt and Uncle. In May my sister in law had a baby girl named Tenley. Who knew that it was possible to love another person's kid as much as we love that little girl! I LOVE being an aunt!

-- Buying a Home. This was probably the most stressful yet rewarding thing we have ever done. Being homeowners is so rewarding and so hard and so wonderful. We love our home.

-- Getting a dog. Ever since I graduated from high school in 2006 I couldn't wait to find a place to live that allowed pets. I wanted a dog so dang bad! Well, in August Zorro joined our family. How were our lives ever complete without that little weirdo?

-- Going on some great mini vacations. Justin and I decided that we couldn't really afford a great big vacation this year so we took some mini ones to a junk yard in Idaho for his birthday, St. George to see Aladdin at the Tuacahn for my birthday, and a super fun, family filled weekend in Bear Lake for my mom's birthday.

--Some of the greatest holidays to date that were filled with lots of extended family, great food, lost of laughs, and wonderful memories made.

--Celebrating our one year anniversary.

--And last, but definitely not least- finding out that we were pregnant. What a whirlwind of emotion that was (and still is).

I am really excited for 2013. And kind of already wishing it away haha. I definitely will try very hard to be patient and try to love the present, but in all honesty most of this year I will spend pregnant, so yeah- I can't wait for August when we finally get to meet our little baby Palmer. We are also headed back to the Tuacahn in May for Mary Poppins so I am pretty excited for that as well. Other than that we will try a little harder, do a little better, and love each other a little more.  I definitely think this next year will trump last year and I am pretty happy about that. So happy new year everyone! And good luck with those resolutions!